I am an anomalous amalgamation

1/29/11 6:01 PM

I am an anomalous amalgamation.  An independent agent, born in captivity, attempting to return to a hive that has no means to integrate me or desire as I smell like the enemy. I want to be in the hive, to share, to support, to be a part of. 

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Ah D______, when hasn’t lex parsimoniae come into it? 🙂 Good to see you and some of the others here. You? a ———? I’m just going to put that down next to my hippie. 

I’m glad you keep popping up here. I’ve been internally mediating my past and my current uber public working mode and would like to use this as an opportunity to tells bits of my story and perspective that I’ve wanted to share. I hope you don’t mind my taking you along for the ride. 

Delete if I outstep any utterly valid public boundaries. One of the reasons Angela and I have been successful in Detroit is that we we try to wear our shit on our sleeve. I still find it odd that the most intuitive things, like sharing our resources and our stories, are twisted up and distorted so they can never threaten the status quo. I try to share a great deal, but I don’t get many opportunities to carry on about my personal evolutionary path, a great deal of which, I’m honored to have walked with you.

Brother, I know it’s perspective, but this paradigm seems more intense than many of our excursions. (that doesn’t decrease the value or extremity of our shared moments screaming through the void) The boy may induce this, but the intensity was here before his manifestation. Ha! maybe its age. 

When last we met I was holed up in Compuware drinking my face off and going into massive debt. 

Actually, you helped send me in this direction with that catholic wedding. I thought I had the will and reserve to successfully navigate corporate America and the suburbs and, frankly, got trapped. Well, is it really getting trapped if the process of escaping gives you the tools requisite for the next chapter? 🙂 

It took yoga three times a day, a series of ceremonies, a journey to India to study with my now passed Guru, a NASTY divorce, and a summer of trying to rub up against anything that would stand still to break out of it. Though I wouldn’t change anything I made some poor choices there that I’ll most likely have to navigate through a few more cycles. 

Two things happened in that process that actually set the stage for the current paradigm, I met Angela (you’ll flip when you meet her, amazing being) and the City of Detroit started to talk to me. 

Recently though, the City stopped talking to me and in its place I began to hear the voices of the people who live here. To my own amazement they sounded like some of the voices I heard on our intense excursions. I’m now dedicated to the the sometimes painful never-ending process of aligning myself with those voices in real time. You know the depths of my misanthropy and I’m sure you can identify what a mf this is. 

But I think I save the rest for another. This should be just the right amount of information to raise eyebrows at the next community potluck. 🙂 Love to you and yours Brother!

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“Real Men” Don’t Do Yoga

A version of this was published and syndicated nationally through Natural Awakenings. There is a huge difference between the text below, which includes a critique of masculinity and what was published. Like most things here I would write it differently today, but feel there is some merit given the ongoing need to grow self awareness and compassion. 23.  

“Real Men” Don’t Do Yoga
An example of Active Compassion written for Men
We come from different places and all of us have different paths to fulfill here. We need to acknowledge our differences, let them be, and find some common ground. This common ground gives us space for the exploration requisite to heal ourselves and to help heal the world around us. Many believe we are at a pivotal point in history.  With out getting too into details (details tend to muck up common ground) we need to do something about the roles that are considered acceptable for Men in our culture.

There is a huge discrepancy between the portrayals of “Real Men” in the media and the men that many of us would like to be and that the world really needs right now. This discrepancy keeps us from engaging in, and gives us the opportunity to avoid, practices that inspire health, well being, and active compassion because they don’t fit acceptable roles. In order to change this we must change ourselves and support and encourage one another.

No matter where we are in our lives, there are some practices we can take up to eliminate the manipulative concept of “Real Men” altogether. As a Yoga Instructor and Massage Therapist, I participate in the emergent compassion connected to such undertakings. Therein lies something quite valuable, compassion itself is hardwired into particular actions and activities.

The Formula
Simply put, it is a formula that we all can appreciate, if we use the tools available to us, we will change. The majority of us are not going to receive overnight enlightenment, but we might feel better, breathe more deeply, and possibly even experience rare states of being, like contentment, empathy and even peace.

Once we realize that through action we can create change in ourselves, we can then postulate the role we can play in changing the world around us. On some levels that may seem quite obvious, but if it is obvious why are we as a culture in general, and men in particular, so seemingly deficient in not only compassion, but health?

We are all aware of the fast pace that the world around us is traveling at, but not everyone is aware that we can choose to participate or not. In cultures focused on agriculture, Men are connected to the natural world through their work, their labor.  The assembly line and cubicle have lessened our awareness of the cycle of life to the point where, in order to redefine our selves it is necessary to pursue and experiment with actions that will facilitate our reconnection. “Real Men” can be obliterated in the process.

The Tools
Three tools with benefits that can come quickly are Yoga, Massage and Diet. Many may perceive these approaches as easily accessible because once you begin using them they become quite natural. But it takes great courage to walk into your first yoga class. Here’s a guide to inform and inspire your journey.

Yoga
Yoga is dynamic. It means many things to many people as it has had centuries to evolve, shift and change while traveling across regions and continents. In our Western setting yoga, until very recently, was perceived as a women’s health activity. The “yoga boom” changed the demographics a great deal, but no matter if you’re waking into a room full of women or not, there are many things to be mindful of your first time out.

  • You should consult your Doctor before making changes to your exercise routine
  • Each yoga session is a little culture unto itself. Yoga is full of traditions, adaptations and social norms co-created by the students, the instructor and the space. At first you may not be able to see some of the more subtle aspects of this, so seek out and be open to instruction.
  • Ask around or search for local classes. Visit the website or the studio to get a schedule. Many studios post guidelines for classes that will help you to get acclimated.
  • Arrive early to class to get settled in and meet the teacher. It is a great honor to share yoga with someone for the first time.
  • Some people take yoga very seriously because that is what they want yoga to be, others practice with a sense of lightness and ease. Visit different studios, “try out” many instructors and traditions, so that you can find a yoga that fits you. Always be mindful that what fits one day may not fit the next.
  • Be gentle with yourself. Even if we are active, many of us quickly realize that yoga gets into muscles we rarely use. This, in addition to the common “no pain, no gain” mindset and our cultural association of yoga with gracefulness and ease give us a good reason to approach a new yoga class mindfully.
  • Remember that even though it is sacred, it is only yoga.

Touch
Human contact is essential to our development and well being, yet touching is a challenge for many. Respect is key in this. But Men can do something much more to reframe and reclaim touch, we can become more aware of how special and sacred it is. No matter whom we touch or how we touch them, it is always an intimate experience.

  • If you’ve never had one, schedule a professional massage. Massage is both a therapeutic modality and an Art form. Though we can’t just pick up the anatomy, physiology and technique required to provide a therapeutic massage, we can demystify touch and experience the health benefits first hand.
  • Cost being a factor these days, consider contacting a local massage school. Many schools have student clinics where massage is offered to the public at a discounted rate. Some of the best massages of my life have been from students.
  • Share this article with your partner, family or friends and open up a discussion about the health benefits of touch and massage. Consider the potential that this could have in reframing touch in your life.
  • If you have a partner, ask them if they would be interested in exchanging non-sexual touch. It’s important to express this and keep to it, as it will provide space for both of you to experience the benefits without pressure or expectations that are often bundled up with sex. Many find that drawing this line with touch improves many aspects of their relationships, including sex.
  • Whether you have a partner, family member or friend you can share touch with or not, touch yourself! Self-massage is a great way to experience the benefits. While many of us may massage our palms or shoulders when they are in pain, give yourself the opportunity to sit and explore the nooks and crannies of your palm and arm.
  • Finally, when you are practicing touch, listen to your partner and listen for your reactions. Keep the lines of communication open and always share what feels good in addition to things that don’t work. Be flexible and remember that this is sacred.

Diet
Food is another powerful tool that is extremely loaded in our culture. Food is actually one of the most frequently defined aspects of “Real Men.” They don’t eat this or they do eat that. The fact, that we all seem to forget all the time, is that “we are what we eat.” To kick the concept of “Real Men” we need to radically change our diets, eliminate the crap we have a tendency to eat because it is so easy, and try new things. For many, this is the toughest tool to get a handle on. These thoughts may help along the way.

  • Changing our food intake is not something to be taken lightly. Consulting your physician is recommended.
  • Increase your intake of whole foods (fruits, vegetables, grains, beans and nuts)
  • Don’t fall for the “Protein Myth.” Eating whole grains, beans, nuts, seeds and dark leafy greens, like spinach will provide you with all the protein your body needs.
  • Diversify your shopping habits. Many of us get into a rut when buying food. Rather than getting your food from one store, visit your local Farmer’s Market for your fruits and vegetables.
  • Try it RAW! Increasing the amount of raw vegetables and fruits that we eat will increase our overall health. We encourage eating at least 50% of every meal raw. Thankfully salad bars are easy to find, just be mindful of the dressings. Find a recipe to make your own dressing using healthy oils like olive or sesame.
  • Find a local healthy food meet-up group to meet others who are making similar changes. Having a support system in place and a resource for new ideas and recipes is invaluable in this work.
  • Like Yoga and Touch, we can do ourselves a great service if we look at the preparation, eating and sharing of food as sacred. Putting something in our mouths can be viewed as one of the most intimate acts.

Download the pdf: NA 0610 RealMenDon’tDoYoga

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Emergent Technology Zones

June 2, 2010

“Self-organization is a process of attraction and repulsion in which the internal organization of a system, normally an open system, increases in complexity without being guided or managed by an outside source. Self-organizing systems typically (but not always) display emergent properties.”

I am proposing that the City of Detroit establish Sustainability Testing Zones for the exploration of Open Social modes and models. These Sustainable Development Zones will facilitate the development and documentation of Emergent Technologies that will inform Land Use, Urban Planning, bridge the gap between people and government, Community Resilience, Economic Development and Cooperative and Community owned business.

Stand, for a time, outside of time

It is a rare combination of fear and courage that has permitted a person like me to survive to this point. I’ve seen my brothers and sisters slit their wrists and get put away, I’ve seen the questions and the outrage silenced in my peers, and I’ve fallen into distortion and despair so many times that there’s no way I can blame them for losing their way.

It’s kind of staggering to stand, for a time, outside of time. To look out across a battlefield strewn infinitely with twisted and broken versions of yourself.

But, I AM here and I made it through what ever the hell THAT was. And as far as I can tell, though I’m a little more weak in body and spirit than before, I have made some friends and somehow managed to craft strong allegiances that have already stepped forward to support not only our work, but our family.

Five Ways to Celebrate Earth Day

My partner and I wrote this for the local Natural Awakenings publication in April 2009 as an introduction to Earth Day. 

Earth Day is a wonderful opportunity for each of us to discover new ways to reestablish or deepen our connection with the Earth. This year, as we all revel in the return of spring after a long cold winter, here are five ways to keep your personal relationship with the Earth in mind.

Grow Your Own
Start your own garden. Whether large, small or even potted, this is, hands- down, the best way to reconnect to Mother Earth. Many can recall how, during our early learning, we planted seeds in little cups of dirt and over time, observed in great wonder how a sprout reared up from the soil. We can easily rekindle this sense of wonder by growing some of our own food. It doesn’t matter if you own a home or rent a loft—you can set aside a small area of the yard or purchase some large plastic pots or pottery to get started.

Another way to make a connection is to become involved in a community garden. Even caring for houseplants nourishes physical and emotional well being; getting your hands dirty by growing your own food takes this a step further. Nothing tastes better than food you’ve had a hand in growing. The Detroit Garden Resource Program, a local gardening support group, is here to help new home gardeners. Visit Detroitagriculture.org/garden_ resourceprogram.htm.

Composting
We began composting several years ago, and now gladly share our surprise at how much it increased our aware- ness of the Earth and our attentiveness to the cycle of life. Initiating an estab- lished routine of composting in early spring prepares the way for effective composting in warmer weather.

For example, keep a five-gallon bucket, fitted with a tight lid, in your kitchen. In March, begin putting in all produce cuttings, coffee grounds, etc. In the summer, we use recycled produce bags or soy milk containers to store smaller amounts in the kitchen and move the larger bucket outside, near the garden. If you do not have your own garden and wish to share your compost, many community gardens and local farms happily accept it. Be sure to ask for the garden or farm’s composting guidelines. HowToCompost.org shares many ways to compost.

Follow the Moon
In a fast-paced, modern world, the idea of tracking the moon’s cycles may seem almost primitive, yet we have found it a powerful ally in our quest to continually reconnect with nature. The moon guides modern farmers, as it did the ancients, in the best times for seed- ing and harvesting. It influences the ebb and flow of Earth’s waters, and we believe it may influence our physical bodies, as well.

Picking up a calendar that details moon phases can help. The Moon Connection (MoonConnection.com/ moon_phases_calendar.phtml) is one online resource. However, if you are Web savvy, you can find a plethora of tools and gadgets that will keep you aware of not only Earth’s moon, but also daily times for sunrise and sunset.

Because farmers traditionally plant on the new moon and harvest on the full, we’ve translated this into our lives by beginning projects and establishing personal goals on the new moon and celebrating our progress on the full. These rituals have been helpful and kept our lives in closer connection with the world around us.

Buy Local
With the economic decline, every- one we know has started to pay a bit more attention to the origin of their purchases. We can take an active role in developing local resilience to hard times by seeking out local products.

Increasing the percentage of local goods that you purchase grows the local economy and reduces the amount of energy used to transport them. It also provides increased op- portunities to interact and share with the people who grow the food and make the supplies we need. Sustainable Connections (SConnect.org/thinklocal/ why) offers 10 reasons to buy local.

Change Your Diet
One of the top contributors to global warming is animal agriculture. Rising carbon dioxide, methane and nitrous oxide emissions are released by the massive quantities of animals raised on factory farms. Consuming one pound of such meat is estimated to emit the same amount of greenhouse gasses as driving an SUV 40 miles.

As an alternative, studies by the Uni- versity of Chicago and the Food and Agriculture Organization of the United Nations suggest that adopting a veg- etarian diet is the most effective way that an individual can reduce global warming. The Physicians Committee for Responsible Medicine (pcrm.org) is an excellent health and nutrition resource for those considering a transi- tion to a plant-based diet.

Our own vegan diet (eliminating all animal byproducts, including eggs and dairy) has benefited our overall health and reduced our healthcare costs. We also save significant grocery money and enjoy supporting local farmers by seeking out nearby sources of grains, fruits and veggies for our table.

Our hope is that everyone in our community will find their own suitable ways to enjoy the many benefits of growing closer to Earth’s bounty.

Detroit Evolution Laboratory was founded in the historic Eastern Market in 2007. Dedicated to the health, joy and liberation of all beings, “The Lab” promotes active, aware, healthy and sustainable vegan and raw food lifestyles in the city of Detroit.

Invoking Ahimsa Within The Core

November 26, 2008

A·him·sa(in the Hindu, Buddhist, and Jainist tradition) respect for all living things and avoidance of violence toward others.


Meditating On Ahimsa

As Angela and I were preparing an Ahimsa focused workshop, I found myself meditating on an aspect of teaching that I once struggled with a great deal. In the West we tend to be fairly set in our ways when it comes to our eating habits. Many of us, often due to media created and manipulated concerns over body image, are also extremely sensitive about diet.

When contemplating Ahimsa or non-violence, we often have a tendency to focus on the lives of Gandhi and King and gloss over the immediate himsa, or violence, surrounding us. We are all connected to human and animal slavery and slaughter. We avoid this frank discussion because the information is so incredibly hard to look at. It can reach deep into core belief systems and many people, with good reason, rigorously defend their core.

I meditated seeking wisdom that would empower the self and shift those core beliefs that no longer work into more open, yet sincere, values. I sought a new path to activate Ahimsa in my students and myself. In this culture external and internal forces scrutinize us daily and the decision to gaze inward isn’t trite. It takes courage to look inside and great fortitude to internalize Ahimsa.

Reducing Ahimsa To Fit On Our Mat
In the past, to be more socially acceptable, I glossed over the rough stuff with my friends, family, students and even myself. Being a fan of liberty and choice, I didn’t want to appear dogmatic in any way. When sharing the concept of Ahimsa with my students or translating it from yogic scripture, I focused upon the importance of non-violence towards the self in physical practice and left it at that.

I also glossed over the importance of Ahimsa to my health. For over 20 years, with a few lapses, I was a poorly nourished vegetarian. I looked at food as a very mundane aside to a focused spiritual path. I was eating processed, microwaved and even fast food meals and, by doing so, I declared war on my body. By reducing Ahimsa so it would nicely fit on my mat, I turned my eyes away from the fact that, no matter the discipline, at its root yoga requests a humane and healthy diet.

Growing Ahimsa Through Diet
Meeting Angela changed all of this immediately. Food became the center of our life together and this brought a balance unknown before. It reconnected me to the root meaning of Ahimsa and a direct intimate knowledge of the violence our actions can inflict upon our bodies and, in turn, the world around us.

With Angela’s guidance, I began to change my diet. Letting go of processed foods and switching to 100% organic and/or local produce created an instant shift in my awareness and perception. It added depth to my physical practice as well. I continued to practice Ahimsa on my mat and strived to be firm yet supple in body and mind. But it became clear that a side effect of the shift in my diet was the opening to an essential understanding of non-violence.

Change Your Food, Change Your Mind
Our food intake influences not only our mood but also our perception. As we begin to lessen our intake of chemicals and increase our intake of nutrients, things come into focus and we see the world a bit more clearly. A clean diet cleans up our lenses and lightens our load to the point that we can process Ahimsa as it applies to the self in subtle but life changing ways.

To parse a biological metaphor, at every orifice, where the external meets the internal there is a protective layer of mucous membrane. This mucous is a blessing for it collects toxins and protects us from harm. But, the more out of balance our health, the thicker our mucous becomes. On the physical plane, practicing Ahimsa in our diet reduces the barriers between the external and the internal. We become slightly more sensitive to toxins, but more importantly we become hyper-aware of awe and joy.

Self-Love Begets…
This increase in sensitivity blows opens the doors of Ahimsa. Now looking inside finds a heartfelt awe for the processes of life and possibly that divine spark the ancients wrote of. The internalized path of Ahimsa has the potential to lead from non-violence on the mat and in our diet to a deep self-love. Self-love begets physical, mental and spiritual healing that tends to turn the gaze outward.

As we become the needle that threads itself, by pulling Ahimsa through our core and then outward, we become not only awe-filled by our internal systems and divine light, but by the systems and brilliant light around us. When we give ourselves to awe, we become filled with reverence for all life. If we are able to even slightly conceive of the miracles going on inside of us, how can we not be nearly dumbstruck with awe about the miracles going on outside? As we deepen our self-love we can deepen our appreciation for the processes that facilitate our existence. Our love transcends the self and Ahimsa begins to radiate through us into our world.

Ahimsa Finds A Way
Though I glossed over Ahimsa in my attempts to be non-confrontational and non-dogmatic, it found a way to permeate my life nonetheless.  By not forcefully removing the blinders that have been set up to protect us from direct knowledge of the violence around us, we actually find a peaceful path to an Ahimsa that first fortifies the self. Though this world is thick with violence, a perspective fueled by self-love offsets its immensity and begins to whittle away at its foundation. Activating Ahimsa through any means is vital in this day and age and it is my intention with this musing to assist it in finding a way to activate for and through you. My Blessings to you and yours..

 

Welcome, Introductions, Opening & Intention

Practice: Surya Namaskara (light Sun Salutations)

Ahimsa in Mind, Body & Spirit
“Noninjury,” nonviolence or nonhurtfulness. Refraining from causing harm to others, physically, mentally or emotionally. Ahimsa is the first and most important of the yamas (restraints). It is the cardinal virtue upon which all others depend.

Grounding into the Body
The Western Mind and the Eastern Body
b. Pranayama: Awareness of Breath, Body & Mind
c. Finding stillness in the raging stream of thoughts

Practice: Core Ujjayi Breathing, connecting to our root

Practicing Self Gratitude to grow Body Awareness.
Tuning In & Turning the Gaze Inward
b. Focusing & Making Adjustments
c. Finding Awe in Simplicity & The Study of Anatomy

Meditation: Growing the Heart

Expanding the Awareness and Opening to Others
Being at the Extremes
b. Extending beyond Extremes
c. From Self Awareness to Action

Meditation: Opening the Crown

Ahimsa & Body Awareness in The Kitchen

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Activating Ahimsa

Meditating On Ahimsa
As A and I were preparing an Ahimsa focused workshop, I found myself meditating on an aspect of teaching that I once struggled with a great deal. In the West, we tend to be fairly set in our ways when it comes to our eating habits. Many of us, often due to media created and manipulated concerns over body image, are also extremely sensitive about diet. 

When contemplating Ahimsa or non-violence, we often have a tendency to focus on the lives of Gandhi and King and gloss over the immediate himsa, or violence, surrounding us. We are all connected to human and animal slavery and slaughter. We avoid this frank discussion because the information is so incredibly hard to look at. It can reach deep into core belief systems and many people, with good reason, rigorously defend their core.

I meditated seeking wisdom that would empower the self and shift those core beliefs that no longer work into more open, yet sincere, values. I sought a new path to activate Ahimsa in my students and myself. In this culture external and internal forces scrutinize us daily and the decision to gaze inward isn’t trite. It takes courage to look inside and great fortitude to internalize Ahimsa. 

Reducing Ahimsa To Fit On Our Mat
In the past, to be more socially acceptable, I glossed over the rough stuff with my friends, family, students and even myself. Being a fan of liberty and choice, I didn’t want to appear dogmatic in any way. When sharing the concept of Ahimsa with my students or translating it from yogic scripture, I focused upon the importance of non-violence towards the self in physical practice and left it at that. 

I also glossed over the importance of Ahimsa to my health. For over 20 years, with a few lapses, I was a poorly nourished vegetarian. I looked at food as a very mundane aside to a focused spiritual path. I was eating processed, microwaved and even fast food meals and, by doing so, I declared war on my body. By reducing Ahimsa so it would nicely fit on my mat, I turned my eyes away from the fact that, no matter the discipline, at its root yoga requests a humane and healthy diet. 

Growing Ahimsa Through Diet
Meeting A changed all of this immediately. Food became the center of our life together and this brought a balance unknown before. It reconnected me to the root meaning of Ahimsa and a direct intimate knowledge of the violence our actions can inflict upon our bodies and, in turn, the world around us.

With A’s guidance, I began to change my diet. Letting go of processed foods and switching to 100% organic and/or local produce created an instant shift in my awareness and perception. It added depth to my physical practice as well. I continued to practice Ahimsa on my mat and strived to be firm yet supple in body and mind. But it became clear that a side effect of the shift in my diet was the opening to an essential understanding of non-violence. 

Change Your Food, Change Your Mind
Our food intake influences not only our mood but also our perception. As we begin to lessen our intake of chemicals and increase our intake of nutrients, things come into focus and we see the world a bit more clearly. A clean diet cleans up our lenses and lightens our load to the point that we can process Ahimsa as it applies to the self in subtle but life changing ways.

To parse a biological metaphor, at every orifice, where the external meets the internal there is a protective layer of mucous membrane. This mucous is a blessing for it collects toxins and protects us from harm. But, the more out of balance our health, the thicker our mucous becomes. On the physical plane, practicing Ahimsa in our diet reduces the barriers between the external and the internal. We become slightly more sensitive to toxins, but more importantly we become hyper-aware of awe and joy.

Self-Love Begets…
This increase in sensitivity blows opens the doors of Ahimsa. Now looking inside finds a heartfelt awe for the processes of life and possibly that divine spark the ancients wrote of. The internalized path of Ahimsa has the potential to lead from non-violence on the mat and in our diet to a deep self-love. Self-love begets physical, mental and spiritual healing that tends to turn the gaze outward. 

As we become the needle that threads itself, by pulling Ahimsa through our core and then outward, we become not only awe-filled by our internal systems and divine light, but by the systems and brilliant light around us. When we give ourselves to awe, we become filled with reverence for all life. If we are able to even slightly conceive of the miracles going on inside of us, how can we not be nearly dumbstruck with awe about the miracles going on outside? As we deepen our self-love we can deepen our appreciation for the processes that facilitate our existence. Our love transcends the self and Ahimsa begins to radiate through us into our world.

Ahimsa Finds A Way
Though I glossed over Ahimsa in my attempts to be non-confrontational and non-dogmatic, it found a way to permeate my life nonetheless.  By not forcefully removing the blinders that have been set up to protect us from direct knowledge of the violence around us, we actually find a peaceful path to an Ahimsa that first fortifies the self. Though this world is thick with violence, a perspective fueled by self-love offsets its immensity and begins to whittle away at its foundation. Activating Ahimsa through any means is vital in this day and age and it is my intention with this musing to assist it in finding a way to activate for and through you. My Blessings to you and yours..

Lunar Based Pranayama: Encouraging Exploration of Breath and Moon Cycles

Those who aspire to the state of yoga should seek the Self in inner solitude through meditation. With body and mind controlled they should constantly practice one-pointedness, free from expectations and attachment to material possessions. ~Bhagavad Gita 6:10

No matter what your experience in the art and science of yoga, you know that it is all about the breath. Whether we’ve practiced Yin or Ashtanga, our teachers have reminded us time and time again to focus on the breath. The problem is that there is SO much going on while we are practicing we are easily distracted. We’re distracted by our thoughts, our judgments, the intensity or lack thereof in the class, our neighbors, that little spot on the floor, and even by trying to understand or anticipate our teacher’s sequence. There is a great deal going on within the body, the mind and the environment around us! Keeping one’s mind fully upon the breath is a challenge ancient sages and living masters alike have faced. Pranayama[i], one of the eight limbs of yoga, is a detailed study and practice of breath, energy flow, and meditation.

Creating a pranayama practice can greatly assist us to connect to the breath in our asana practice. Our ability to focus upon the breath increases our ability to oxygenate the body. This oxygenation, more than increased flexibility or muscle toning, is the greatest benefit received from yoga. Even the most gentle of asana move flesh and muscle and this motion releases toxins built up over time at rest into the blood stream. Oxygenation along with proper hydration flushes these toxins from the body[ii]. This is the key to the healing properties of yoga that many of us have read about and some have experienced.

Finding Time for Pranayama
Practice and all is coming. ~Sri K. Pattabhi Jois

Making time to include a focused pranayama session into our busy lives can be one of the greatest challenges. We’ve all had that “ah-ha” moment where we realize that days when we make the time for asana practice go much more smoothly than those when we don’t. I’m sure that a great many of us have also realized that our practice miraculously seems to create enough energy and focus that we actually have more free time available! Taking the extra effort to engage in a pranayama practice tends to amplify this. Finding a bit more time in your schedule to develop a connection to pranayama will deepen your regular asana practice and greatly increase the cleansing and healing properties of yoga within you.

While we would benefit from a deep hour-long pranayama practice, the fact is the majority of us are better suited for a five-minute pranayama practice at this stage. I’ve practiced pranayama for 20 years and have just recently began to explore long sessions. Unfortunately, many of us in the West have lost our connection to the breath and need to be reminded how to breathe. Breath is a great indicator of the overall health of a culture. We tend live our lives from our heads and our hearts, which from an overarching view is an incredible feat. Humans have developed the ability to reason and emote at levels that can only be expressed as divine. But in this process we have let go of our connection to the earth. We rarely breathe below our solar plexus these days, let alone down to our core, which is where our connection to the earth and the physical plane is expressed.

With this in mind, the silver lining is, you don’t need to find another hour! Striving towards fifteen minutes every other day is challenging and admirable. An easy way to get in your pranayama is to connect it to your asana practice. If you practice at home just set the alarm a little early. If you take a class ask your teacher if they mind if you arrive early to work on pranayama before class. (They’ll probably be beside themselves with joy!) When you arrive, roll out your mat and find a comfortable yet erect position to settle into. If there are distractions they will become our greatest teachers as we learn to turn our focus within. Your decision to take this extra time will also be visible to your instructor and your fellow students and may create opportunities for further exploration into other limbs of yoga in your community and satsang[iii].

The First Breath
One of the symptoms of an approaching nervous breakdown is the belief that one’s work is terribly important. ~Bertrand Russell

There are many suggestions as to the best introductory techniques to pranayama. I will share a few here to begin the process but again refer back to your teacher who will most likely have the best suggestions as they know the current expression of breath during your asana practice. I find the best mindset to approach pranayama from is a mixture of exploration and play. I often consider my awareness to be like Lewis and Clark, mindfully skirting the edges of a new frontier. We need to be extremely gentle with ourselves as well. Yoga is a lifelong practice and the more subtle aspect of pranayama will meet overzealous determination with equal resistance. Practice of pranayama without judgment and especially without frustration seems to be requisite for advancement. Again, the spirit of play and exploration are recommended.

There are probably as many breathing techniques in pranayama as there are asana! The victorious nasal Ujjayi breath common to most hatha yoga is a suitable breath for our initial dip into pranayama[iv]. Padmasana, crossed legs, an erect spine and a slightly tucked chin, is an excellent position to begin with, but any will do. The hands are placed wherever they are comfortable, but as your explorations develop it is energetically sound to place the hands upon the knees and possibly even take a mudra[v] with the hands. Again, different traditions have different expressions here. This process is one way in that, as we deepen our connection to yoga, the importance of teachers and sat-gurus comes to light.

As we enter into our pranayama, sitting straight, engaging in Ujjayi breath, and striving to weave together the breath and the awareness we will meet many opportunities. The first, mentioned above, will most likely be external distractions. As we close our eyes and begin to move towards our center the other physical senses tend to engage. Conversations from the lobby or traffic from the street vie for our attention as we move towards stillness. It is not that we want to ignore these things though. To ignore these stimuli implies an ignorance of them and that is not the goal here. We want to focus our awareness completely within ourselves. To ignore something requires a certain amount of awareness of that which we are ignoring. Let the world be around you and shift your focus.

Of course, the greatest tool to assist with this inner focus is the breath. Ujjayi breath creates a sound[vi] and that sound comes from within. As we let the world around us fall away focusing on the sound of the breath will guide the awareness within. The internalized awareness faces a new opportunity as aberrant thoughts and emotions begin to flood the awareness. Here, objectivity and a certain amount of awe for the mental capacity required to process this raging river will be your best allies. Objectivity can lead us to examine the possibility that thoughts and emotions, like the external sounds, are actually not who we are! To overcome the onrush of thoughts we can try to build a dam and with rigid discipline attempt to still the waters, but this process begs the question, who is building the dam?

The spirit of exploration will assist you here as well. An explorer documents her travels and keeping a yoga journal will assist in learning this new terrain. Please be aware that the process we are lightly bandying about here in a few paragraphs is one that can play out over years or decades for some while others may merge more easily into these states. No matter your experience with pranayama, practice is always required and creating a link between our asana practice and our pranayama will be a great boon to both.

Moon Days
See how nature – trees, flowers, grass – grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence…we need silence to be able to touch souls~Mother Teresa of Calcutta

In addition to the creation of a pranayama practice within our regular asana practice we can look to the observation of Moon Days to extend our ability. The observation of Moon Days is a slightly fringe aspect of yoga engaged in by some schools of thought. It can have a profound affect on the connection between yoga and the rest of your life. My personal practice is traditional Ashtanga as handed down by Sri. K. Pattabhi Jois and in this lineage we do not pursue asana practice on days of the full and new moon. There are many and varied reasons for this, but the best explanation is that the human body is 70% water and is influenced by the moon just as the ebb and flow of the tides are. The slight pull of the moon upon our bodies shifts our center of gravity and can rend us more susceptible to injury. Taking rest from our asana practice gives us another opportunity to pursue pranayama.

In addition to extra time to explore the inner realms, this practice can assist to reestablish our connection to the world around us. An awareness of the cycles of the moon brings our bodies closer to a connection with Natural Time. The clock and the calendar are man-made constructs and though they perpetuate our civilization and lifestyle, they too negate our connection to our core.  Taking a moment to recognize the new and full moon can lead us to an awareness of the delicate machinery around us, the sunrise and sunset, the positions of the stars and ultimately to an awareness of ourselves within this place. We may also slightly glimpse the fact that we live in Natural Time and constructed time in the same breath and that there may be other levels of awareness as well, but we’ll leave these abstract notions for more advanced pranayama explorations.

As we engage in our Moon Day practice we may begin to notice subtle differences between full and new moons. Cultures around the world have expressed the different energies between these opposite ends of the lunar cycle in very similar language. Typically the new moon is imbued with a grounding quality associated with fertility and planting. The full moon, in turn, is a time of harvesting, of rising energy and a time of spirit. By observing the energetic qualities of the lunar cycle we can guide the meditative aspects of our pranayama. Tuning into this natural flow of setting intentions on the new moon and tending to them during the waxing of the moon can serve as a guide us upon our life path. Being mindful of harvesting the fruits of our intentions and nourishing ourselves with them through the waning of the moon can inspire us and bring us closer to a more active role in our lives. This cycle continues and as the new moon comes back around we again find ourselves breathing on our mat, exploring pranayama and planning seeds.

This exploration into pranayama, approached from the mindset of play and exploration, will amplify the connection between our yoga, our world, and all worlds. We have covered a great deal of ground here but at the same time have greatly simplified a very complex system that, as mentioned above, is designed to be studied throughout a lifetime or even across many lifetimes. The greatest resource as you enter into a pranayama practice will be your own body, mind, and breath, your asana teacher and the foundational texts of the tradition that influences your practice.

[i] Pranayama (Sanskrit prana = life force, or vital energy, the breath, ayama = to lengthen or extend) is often translated as control of the life force. When used as a technical term in yoga, it is often translated more specifically as “breath control.”

Pranayama is the fourth ‘limb’ of the eight limbs of Raja Yoga mentioned in verse 2.29 in the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali. Patanjali discusses his specific approach to pranayama in verses 2.49 through 2.51, and devotes verses 2.52 and 2.53 to explaining the benefits of the practice. Patanjali refers to pranayama as the control of life force that comes as a result of practicing the various breathing techniques, rather than the numerous breathing exercises themselves.

Many yoga teachers advise that pranayama should be part of an overall practice that includes the other limbs of Patanjali’s Raja Yoga teachings, especially Yama, Niyama, and Asana.

[ii] Different schools of yoga have very different views on hydration during practice. I highly recommend asking your instructor about water intake and your practice.  

[iii] Satsang (Sanskrit sat = true, sanga = company) describes in Indian philosophy (1) the company of the “highest truth,” (2) the company of a guru, and (3) company with an assembly of persons who listen to, talk about, and assimilate the truth.

[iv] Though Ujjayi breath is a great start to our pranayama, as your practice deepens so will your interest in exploring the diverse world of breathing techniques used in pranayama. These different techniques create different states of mind and body.

[v] A mudra is a symbolic or ritual gesture in Hinduism and Buddhism. While some mudras involve the entire body, most are performed with the hands and fingers.

[vi] In many traditions beginning Ujjayi breath has a sound quality while more advanced practitioners will move towards less audible Ujjayi breathing.

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Power Symbols For Personal Growth

This was a piece published in PLAY Magazine in 2007. It was an attempt to consider the power sigils without specifically using the term. 

There is a hidden language written nearly everywhere we look. The place where this language is most visible is in mass marketing. Magazine images, TV commercials, brand names and company logos surround us and their sole purpose is to encourage us to spend money. On the surface, company logos become easily identifiable as representatives of this company or that company, but underneath they express the desire of their company. These little designs, sometimes scribbles, make up an alphabet of desire that drives our consumption. This phenomenon when viewed at the national and international level can be daunting and might even seem slightly dubious, but they are powerful tools for their owners. 

We can easily utilize similar ideas and grow by creating our own symbols. Symbols can be great tools for personal growth and with them we can make alterations to our personalities and our situations. To experiment with this, the next time you meditate or have a quiet moment take a pen and paper and jot down notes. Allow your mind to wander until you find a thought or a situation that you would like to change. Also pay attention to any desires that may come up and write them down. Once you’ve done this set the paper aside and go about your day. At the end of the day or even in the next couple of days, return to your notes and ask yourself if the intent is something that you really want to happen. If you are confident about the intent, begin to formulate a symbol that represents that thought or desire. It doesn’t matter if your symbol is a doodle or a highly stylized corporate looking logo. What matters is that you have a symbol that your mind will identify with that intention. Just the initial acts of meditating, taking notes, and creating the symbol will give that symbol power. 

Now, take that symbol and, as many do with affirmations, put it up around the house and the office. As this symbol comes into your view throughout the day send positive thoughts towards it. Let the symbol come to truly represent its purpose within your heart and mind. Just like the consumer who is drawn towards this brand or that brand you may find that you are drawn to make the changes or fulfill the desire that this symbol represents. As this symbol and it’s intent come to fruition allow yourself to create more and more symbols, maybe even your own alphabet. Enjoy your ability and your prosperity!

Beyond the fire, Beyond the stars

Beyond the fire, beyond the stars there is a vast luminous nothingness. Non-oppressive, expansive and unknowable, the infinite IS. Between light and darkness, it is beyond the scope mind yet within each thought, each breath, and each pause. Overarching, interwoven, and foundational. 

The implied distance between the subject and object is a tool to prevent immediate reintegration. The particulates desire to be gazed upon and in the process, rendered. 

The subject, when gazed upon is immediately connected to the web of life and woven into the reality. When the subject in turn gazes upon the web of life the gaze pulls the veil closed, hence the process of incarnation brings the infinite to the finite.